remember when everyone shipped larry and it wasn’t a big deal
the video diaries
when wmyb was you’re favorite song
when the boys did those cute m&g’s
louis’ striped shirts
liam in plaid
zayn’s varsity jackets
the uan tour
liam’s twitcams after concerts
remember when the boys could be the boys?
today these two kids in my math class were hitting each other with pencils and my teacher glared at them and said “could you try to be a little more mature?”
one of them screamed “TAXES” and punched the other kid in the face
I don’t want to be here and you obviously don’t want me here either. So why am I here at all. I am just a waste, that’s obvious now. I am just ruining everything. I’m sorry. I never meant to screw up everything in your life. But don’t expect to find me. It’s all over. I love you.
I guess I should start off with telling you the truth. I love you. Not in a OMG date me way, just in a hold me close sort of way. The truth is that I want you to nuzzle my neck. The truth is I want to wake up with your arm around my waist. The truth is that I want to watch shark week with you because I love how you pretend that you know a lot about sharks even though you just steal the facts you say off of last years shark week. I just want to smell your old spice as you put your arm around my neck. I want to look at the stars with you and talk about how the world sucks. The truth is that it’s 1 in the morning and I can’t stop thinking about you. About the way you pinch my cheeks when I smile at you. Thinking about the times we spent slow dancing without it getting awkward because we both know its platonic. I am in no way saying I want a relationship with you in any way. I just thought you should know that if you wanted, I would be your big spoon.
Going to sleep with a sore throat. With red eyes, damp cheeks, and puffy face. But what else is new.
You just made me go through a whole lot of tissues. I could never be without you. You are my reason to keep fighting the urges. You are the only thing keeping me here. Like honestly. I made a list of why I should go and why I should stay. I only had you on the reasons to stay side. You outweigh all the bad things in my life. The truth is, these past few days have been great, but I knew that with you they could have been greater. I don’t want to be without you.